1.
Indeed I live in the dark ages!
A guileless word is an absurdity.
A smooth forehead betokens
A hard heart.
He who laughs
Has not yet heard
The terrible tidings.
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When to speak of trees is almost a crime
For it is a kind of silence about injustice!
And he who walks calmly across the street,
Is he not out of reach of his friends
In trouble?
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It is true: I earn my living
But, believe me, it is only an accident.
Nothing that I do entitles me to eat my fill.
By chance I was spared. (If my luck leaves me
I am lost.)
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They tell me: eat and drink.
Be glad you have it!
But how can I eat and drink
When my food is snatched from the hungry
And my glass of water belongs to the thirsty?
And yet I eat and drink.
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I would gladly be wise.
The old books tell us what wisdom is:
Avoid the strife of the world
Live out your little time
Fearing no one
Using no violence
Returning good for evil --
Not fulfillment of desire but forgetfulness
Passes for wisdom.
I can do none of this:
Indeed I live in the dark ages!
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2.
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I came to the cities in a time of disorder
When hunger ruled.
I came among men in a time of uprising
And I revolted with them.
So the time passed away
Which on earth was given me.
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I ate my food between massacres.
The shadow of murder lay upon my sleep.
And when I loved, I loved with indifference.
I looked upon nature with impatience.
So the time passed away
Which on earth was given me.
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In my time streets led to the quicksand.
Speech betrayed me to the slaughterer.
There was little I could do. But without me
The rulers would have been more secure. This was my hope.
So the time passed away
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3.
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You, who shall emerge from the flood
In which we are sinking,
Think --
When you speak of our weaknesses,
Also of the dark time
That brought them forth.
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For we went, changing our country more often than our shoes.
In the class war, despairing
When there was only injustice and no resistance.
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For we knew only too well:
Even the hatred of squalor
Makes the brow grow stern.
Even anger against injustice
Makes the voice grow harsh. Alas, we
Who wished to lay the foundations of kindness
Could not ourselves be kind.
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But you, when at last it comes to pass
That man can help his fellow man,
Do not judge us
Too harshly.
I want to write about this
but I don’t know what to say.
The problem’s not gone anywhere.
This could be said today.
I admire this man’s commitment,
and I feel the same myself.
But I’ve learnt it gets me nowhere.
I just feel overwhelmed,
then go and waste more money
to make myself feel better.
So what then can I do
That will really be effective?
I need some transformation
That will make me care for others
More than I do for myself
Any offers?
The poem's amazing. Gonna buy some more of his poems I think. This really choked me up...
ReplyDelete'Alas, we
Who wished to lay the foundations of kindness
Could not ourselves be kind.'
Speaks right to me. And I think says a lot for people in general.
I was thinking about the beginning part, where he seems to be arguing that it's not right to be happy when others are sad. I think this is a very human response, (or certainly a socialist one) - we naturally assume that compassion equals selling up and going to live on the streets, just so that it's fair on everyone.
But this reminds me of this...
"Presently the lady got up and began to walk away. The other Bright Spirits came forward to receive her, singing as they came...
'and yet...and yet...' I said to my teacher, when all the shapes and singing had passed some distance away into the forest, 'even now I am not quite sure. Is it really tolerable that she should be untouched by his misery?'
'Would ye rather he still had the power of tormenting her?'
'Well no, I suppose I don't want that.'
'What then?'
'I hardly know Sir. What some people on earth say is that the final loss of one soul gives the lie to all the joy of those that are saved.'
'Ye see it does not'
'I feel in a way that it ought to.'
'That sounds very merciful: but see what lurks behind it.'
'What?'
'The demand of the loveless and the self-imprisoned that they should be allowed to blackmail the universe: that till they consent to be happy (on their own terms) no one else shall taste joy: that theirs' should be the final power; that Hell should be able to veto Heaven.'
(C.S. Lewis, The Great Divorce)
There's also an incredible moment in Lord of the Rings (I can't find it I'm afraid) where everyone's suddenly confronted by a great menace, a black rider or the like, but Gandalf laughs, and as he does so each person finds themselves free from the power of the fear that was on them, and reminded of the good that endures beyond evil.
I think dealing with suffering is incredibly hard, and in practice the line between seeking joy and happiness for the benefit of all, or merely just for my own selfish comfort is a thin one. I think it comes down to individuals, and individual circumstances.
Should I permit myself this luxury? Is it taken without me needing/lusting after it? Or do I take it, but could freely lay it down or go without? Should I allow myself to feel pain on other's behalf? But at what point am I consumed by it? When is the time for weeping? And for laughing?
That, I think this is each man's struggle, according to their conscience, and God's promptings.
But there is hope! Life throws at us both good and bad. But God is there throughout.
I'm really priveleged to have that response on my wall. : )
ReplyDeleteHey Tim,
ReplyDeleteI was daring to see my favorite poem on other languages than Russian (that's the one on which I usually read it ;)), and I've encountered your post and the comment to it. Thanks, it was very interesting to read and to know that somebody loves this text as much as me, and the ideas behind it as well. It's a pity you don't write to your journal anymore...